Depression is…..
- Uncontrollable tears – not sobbing, just tears – whenever you’re alone and sometimes when you’re not.
- Oversensitivity to rejection, real or imagined
o Guilt about feeling rejected
§ Frustration at yourself for feeling guilty about feeling rejected
- Complete lack of appetite
o Nausea when you don’t eat
o Nausea when you do eat
- Physical exhaustion from anything that expends either mental or physical energy
- Attempting to be cheerful when other people are around
o Physical and mental exhaustion at trying to be cheerful
o Resentment that other people won’t understand how hard you’re trying to be cheerful
§ Guilt over feeling resentful
- Uncontrollable annoyance at other people’s cheerfulness or good fortune
o Guilt over feeling annoyed
§ Frustration with yourself for feeling guilty about being annoyed
- Seesawing between insomnia and sleeping fourteen hours per day
- Uncontrollable annoyance or anger over things that are minor or even funny when you’re normal
- The desire to do nothing but stare at the wall, or maybe the TV, for hours
o Guilt that you’re not spending your time being more productive
§ Frustration that even when you try to be productive, things don’t happen the way you want them to
o Flitting from activity to activity trying to find something that will distract you for more than five minutes
