16 November 2010

Yet more whining

I don’t understand what I am doing wrong. I don’t understand what is wrong with me that I can’t actually get jobs that I interview for. I am an intelligent person who presents herself well – or at least I try to – but for some reason they don’t want me. This is the second job this fall that I have interviewed for that has seemed perfect for me, and I haven’t gotten it. I don’t understand what I’m doing wrong!

Am I applying for the wrong jobs? Am I saying something wrong in the interview? Is it the American accent? What do I need to do differently?

I need a job. For financial reasons, I just need a job. For mental health reasons, I want a job that I can care about, but that doesn’t drain me to the point of tears every day (teaching). I want a job that I can throw myself into, that I can talk about passionately at parties. But at the very least, I want a job that doesn’t drain me to the point of tears every day. Apparently that is too much to ask for.